Monday, October 30, 2006'♥
hi here long time no blog cos got things to do hahaha sian alot of homework nv do sure died the la like that go on donno can pass ma sian dam la........ hhmmm...... this few i feel funny donno wat to do just feel that things are getting better but yet still messy inside hehehehe donno wat realyl to do maybe still try to find out wat is going on so thats why like that hhmmmm....... wat to do who ask me suddence become like that just not just to it anymore thats all. it all feels so funny to me, hhmmmm think i really lost my life somewhere hehehe, and now dont know really wat to do just see how things go la dam heat this feeling inside me dam sian
Monday, October 23, 2006'♥
Today i was at alan house, got work up by wayne saking to go vivo city hmmm... i ask alan going me he say no got things to do then nvm i wait 4 rain to stop so sit there do nth. when rain stop i pack up take mrt go find them hehehehe.
when reach wa alot of ppl sa then all walk to vivo city i follow then call wayne ask where are they, they say at harbour front sian walk back sian sian...... when meet wayne gela was there also ok then we walk to vivo cite then on the wat wayne saw his cousin wa so funny she keep hitting him hahahaha then we keep walking on look arounf and around then go top floor wa look like beach sa hahahahaha
so hot and got water can play somemore wahahahahaha really like beach hahahahaha then we find place to sit and wait 4 kim to come.when he come we go back harbour front eat pizza hehehehe then there no place so we go cable car there eat. when eating wayne say nv sit befor cable car so we go check the price wa $55.50 wa sian. then nvm then we go take bus into sotensa
hehehehe kim pay 4 me hehehehe then we thought of going fort silso but to later close at 6. we 5.56 go in sian then nvm then wayne say go sit cable car so ok lo go see see lo. then when reach there we think of siting then i say ok lo then i treat them sit hehehehe wa so fun really is very long nv sit liao wahahahhaha fun, so we sit till a place call Jerry box then we alite then walk around nth much but the view nice hahahaha then we sit the cable car back to harbour front then sian nth to do so go eat pizza again then we go home. At interchange we say a old friend from sec sch wa he diver but look like no change wahahahahaha funny guy then ok he left then we wait 4 bus then go home . hmm have fun but still alitte lost and sad... hmmmm
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hmmmm friday morning my friends came right this are some of the photo we see at my house
some old photo of our chalet....
Saturday, October 21, 2006'♥
k i understand anyway tc of yourself and study hard and i am really sry
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then later i call her friend again then ok talk then saw her msn she ok the i was happy but still feeling mix up dam then i talk some more the ok let her go sleep then i go check her blog again i found out that it is still no over dam i really scare sa wat will happened to her dam very then call again she nv pick think dont want to talk to me nvm msn her then she reply say, ask me dont msg or call her dam i felt really sad but wat to do ok have to do ask she ask, so now i really feel all mix up, i really make me think maybe its better that i stop contacting her for a long long time maybe its better this way, dam i really donno dam why things have to end up like that dam. it seems like wat ever things that i really want to do with all my heart will alwast end up like that its really sux i hate myself for this dam alwast bring bad things to those i love and care 4 dam dam dam why like that all i do is alwast bring pain and heur to them why. think its another nite cannot sleep again dam
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dam 2day i waken up but my friend then want to come to return my laptop then ok lo then they come i wait 4 them to come when they come aready i sit down talk, play game and watch tv then we look over some of my old photo of ourself wa see some of my friends really change and myself not much change hahahahaha funny dam, then we went to bj the eat then went to friends house at around 5 something when for bike then fail then feel why is everything have to come 1 after another so sian then nvm go back bj to eat dinner then go friends house take think the go wayne house to stay. at there we eat ice-cream hehehehe then in his room i suddence felt something was wrong so i faster find her blog out then i read that her bf like break up with her dam wat have i done dam why like that shit then i call her she pick but my hp low batter the cut when i try to call back she off her hp shit wat happened i was really worry dam i also want to go her housr to find her but i think we are no more stead then if i go she dont wat to talk then how so i nv did go dam......... the nvm i wait and cool down then call her friend also cannot get her dam nvm think they talking so ok so wait somemore
Friday, October 20, 2006'♥
hai sad.... really sad but i feel better now yesterday talking too you make me feel alot better and i think you also right, hhmmmm... hope we can really be gd friends 4ever hahahahaha hhmmmm.... hai.... all the best and sry about yesterday i so ----- sry
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Sian, was away this few days and alot of things happened with out me know wat the shit. why like that i hared it alot, why have to end up like that why dam i suddenily donno wat to do, its every
IRRITATING SA. Why like that you just make things worst why like that shit la you really spoil everything now, i am not going to let you go so easily DAM ASS
Wednesday, October 18, 2006'♥
hhmmmm......... i know i sux i know some stupid thing but am i really so bad till like that ma, why like that pls tell me wat to do, tell me wat i do wrong, tell me tell me i really need you to tell me. and i think wat is the point of wrinting things here its just a stupit way nv like that way of write things here dam
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hhmmm... here sitting looking at my com donno wat to do, want to find ppl talk also cannot all donno do wat sleep or wat ever. now i knoe how she feel, it really is wat goes around comes arounds sian really sian so many thing to say but cannot so many thing to do but cannot, if i can turn back time i sure will change things but now its not importen cos now nth is importen for me or around me nth. i have nth to say i know i sux heartless, useless surly he have something that i dont thats why i not saying anything dun thing 2 much, since so i rally hope he will take care of you much better then me i know i sux at it see you say him think he must be alot better then me can say so right, nth to say much so its ok find then hope you 2 have a happy time together. but this is not the end of this i will be back someday...........
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wat a day now is 18 oct wat a time to sit here. 2 day see got ppl play O2jam then let me remember the time we play 2 dam so shit wa to do 2 many funny and fun things we did so alot of thing also can make a person remember thing hahahahaha hhmmmm.... 18 18 18 wat a day 2 not to forgeting 17 also, its also a day to remember hehehehehehe i will try not to forget them hehehehe othought 17 and 18 is nth now it will 4ever be remember by some ass here hehehehehe :'( hehehehe anyway thats all nite nite ppl and tc weather not that gd so tc. be back tml to report in 18 last day then time to soal searching.
yes 1 thing i found out wat my friends ment and feel when they say something and i learn it the hard way, but its something so learn from but i really understand wat it feels when then say things cos 1 am also 1 of the millim ppl who went throught it, will try to learn frome it will really try to learn from it
Tuesday, October 17, 2006'♥
hmmmm 2 day is a new day and week i want to feel that is a new start but when i start to sit down and do my work i cant stop thinking about her hmmm........ dam this is driving me carzy really carzy i dont if i can keep this up hehehehe but anyway i have to hehehehe lol dam hmmmm......... it feel like did i did the right thing my mind tells me something but my heart is like telling me something elas dam and is keep thinking and thinking dam feel like going to band the wall and sleep here. anyway i am not saying that its her failt dont worry and thinks so much la k its nth the most i cannot take it the gave up everything hahahahahaha lets see wat happened tml hehehehehe think need to go destress myself hahahahaha hmmm.... wat should i do sian hmmm..... ok nth aready its my thing and i will find ways to get it done ever to risk everything hahahahaha.(think i should not say but wat to do we have a pormist to let each other know wat is going on sian really dont feel like writing it out ) hehehehehe you very gd sa think of this pain sa. the past i nv say only someppl know but you wa every ppl know hahahahahaha sian cos write here (if not open i will hide everything) hahahahahahahaha so you pick open or close must tell me ha hehehehehehe
ps: just found out its truth its really truth now no need to think of other things liao hehehehehe anyway thats wat i think, dam should not have go found out dam now feel like killing some ass but cannot then wat to do kill myself also can hmmm... not a bad idea wahahahahahaha
also just remember that 2day is 17 and tml is 18 must be happy must be hehehehehehe
Monday, October 16, 2006'♥
hmmm..... talking to wayne. we talk about thing found i lost alot of my dreams, hope, will to go on and staff hmm...... think the past me will be very worry, but now i just dont care. donno can say she really have change me in someways or another anyway that is not importon now cos she have move on and so should i lol lame. hmmm....... 1 take a long time 2 still ok 3 donno but hard to get through, everytime that happened i change alot alot but wat to do ppl change to be better me just getting worst anyway nvm about that now its over and done 4 lol hahahaha hmm..... donno how long will i get back some of myself hmm...... its a been along time since i see them hmmm.... maybe take time go find them if they want hehehehehe..... hmmm... when doing cannot feel the pain only after that when the efact come around then feel the pain dam why i so slow, this thing about feeling i really is slow sa alwasy so slow in feeling things, maybe cos i have change to be a heardless person thats why lol it not what i think is a feel that i am sure of. anyway so thing is better left there untouch till later time to talk about hehehehe like some of them aready take out talk to them liao feel much better hehehehe i clear then another come so like no change sian donno when can clear and stop it sian anyway just hope i faster get it over if not i think going to be a really hard time going on like this sian k full of pain and stress going to sleep soon tc and be happy done be like me hahahahahaha ERNEST= HEARDLESS AND USELESS
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hmmm 2day nth much went out go suntect then went bugis sian nth to do sian hahahaha then reach home 10++ hmmmm...... sian tml sch dont feel like going to sch just feel like forget everything just live life the way i want but that cannot be truth cos life sux it really sux, watever la anyway no matter how much i think or do things just dont change much so just follow the flow and just do thing without a soal in me. i think a dead and heartless me is much better then me who thinks so just let me be.
hmmm she got me to think again the thinks i do is it really wat i want or wat hmmmm 4 me to know hehehehehe. just to let you know go or not is not becouse of worry about you, its about if i take it anot, if i cannot take it hahahahaha god knows wat i will do there hahahahaha so i really have to think hard hmmmmmm ;P
Sunday, October 15, 2006'♥
wa just got back from a camp hehehehe no la from friends hosue wa stay there from thrus nite hahahaha not bad but gave my father scold hahahhahaha hmmm..... friday hahaaha i pass my BTT(Basic Theory Test) hahahahaha also got my PDL hahahaha so happy now study for finier theory hehehehehe then the rest is play game go out eat and got bike hahahaha. hmmm just now got back other then get scold i hear something yan got bf liao hmmm...... why do she need to tell me...... why........, dont like the feeling why she need to tell me........ why................., anyway wish her all the best hope yang triead her better then me. think i am am going to mia again..........and think i maybe not going to harold the cherlet liao...... will think about it....... anyway i just have to acceat it
Wednesday, October 11, 2006'♥
wa 2day wake up tired the go wash up and get ready to sch bring alot of thing to sch cos after sch go jogging with me friends hehehehe then at 5 then finish class then got cck mrt wait 4 them then walk to stadim run wat first 3 rounds still can then the 4th cannot liao i walk then run the 5th round gala say my face look pail and i feel like very cannot make it aready liao wa sian so tires now k gtg hehehehe sleep maybe 2moro still go run wa tireds sa
Tuesday, October 10, 2006'♥
hmmm 2day go crs 1 of my lesson the teach tell me that i need to go 4 1 more class dam la make me so angry sa dont think i will be going to that lesson sa, then go 4 then next class the teacher teach like in the perade keep shorting at us, then the room so small then make it even loader scare us sa dam that teacher make me feel more dont want to go her class liao dam her, then got cck stardem watch wayne and gala jog so sian i there try something in cc gen that wayne thought of, then really can make it hahahahaha. then we go eat then walk walk wait 4 alan and long then go find sally then walk some more then go home that all. hmmm 2day tells me that i should not go 4 mondays class anymore staying at home or going out on monday is the best no need to see those teacher face dam them
Monday, October 09, 2006'♥
now the time by long's blog is 1.59 sian nth to do so look at my friends blog then at wayne blog hear crucify my love feel so entey, i donno why like that this few day at nite when i am alone dun feel like sleeping, sitting here at my com i feel like i am all alone like that is nth for me in life, fell like talking to ppl but donno who to turn to, then all i can do is just sit here and think of nth and looking at my com, feel so entey inside and unless. donno really wat i really finding 4. the feel of lonelness in side so sad so lonely donno maybe this is just i have to go through so sad. now i really donno wat to do in life have no feel of wat to do juat feel like to take song from wayne (crucify my love, glamorous sky, god know...if you see this send me k thx) it may help me alittle i think or hope so sian now is 2.05 tml got svh still dont feeling sleeping shit sa all of them sleep i really donno wat to do sa can some1 tell me wat i am look 4 in life wat is reall that i am seaching 4 in life i rallt donno i have lost my way in life, hope this will be better soon if not died really donno wat i will do
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ho MIA came back liao now break time can rest at home hehehehehe but to bad came back the time not gd got haze sian so smorkey around not gd sa bad reall bad dam cannot take feel like wearing gasmask hehehehe thinking too much liao. hahahahaha so this few day at friends house playing new game C&C genearls wa fun sa play and play, play till dont feel like going home hahahahaha wat sa dam wat am i doing shit alot of thing to do still play play and play dam la kk i gtg till next time bb
Friday, October 06, 2006'♥
wa came back to rest and stock up on food and money hehehehehehe. feel so gd to be back hehehehe to check on things. this few days have been at friends house play game all day and nite long hahahaha so tired sa hahahaha then 2day donno go where sa busy busy busy. wat to do sian sa donno la better dont let othere ppl find me then will not be so stress sa hahahahaha sian k gtg before so 1 found out that i am back bb
Tuesday, October 03, 2006'♥
wa i very long nv blog hahahahaha cos 2 busy and sometimes cos 2 tired liao hahahaha hmm wat have i been doing play game, over nite at friends house go sch so thats why to tired most of the time even now i also very tired but i make a point to blog hehehehehehe ma...... think this few also will be busy hehehehe so hope to blog more 4 you to know wat i am doing. ho... yes 1 more thing i did something 2day that i thought i will nv do hehehehe want to know wat come find me and find out hehehehehe k i gtg liao bb
when reach wa alot of ppl sa then all walk to vivo city i follow then call wayne ask where are they, they say at harbour front sian walk back sian sian...... when meet wayne gela was there also ok then we walk to vivo cite then on the wat wayne saw his cousin wa so funny she keep hitting him hahahaha then we keep walking on look arounf and around then go top floor wa look like beach sa hahahahaha so hot and got water can play somemore wahahahahaha really like beach hahahahaha then we find place to sit and wait 4 kim to come.when he come we go back harbour front eat pizza hehehehe then there no place so we go cable car there eat. when eating wayne say nv sit befor cable car so we go check the price wa $55.50 wa sian. then nvm then we go take bus into sotensa 
hehehehe kim pay 4 me hehehehe then we thought of going fort silso but to later close at 6. we 5.56 go in sian then nvm then wayne say go sit cable car so ok lo go see see lo. then when reach there we think of siting then i say ok lo then i treat them sit hehehehe wa so fun really is very long nv sit liao wahahahhaha fun, so we sit till a place call Jerry box then we alite then walk around nth much but the view nice hahahaha then we sit the cable car back to harbour front then sian nth to do so go eat pizza again then we go home. At interchange we say a old friend from sec sch wa he diver but look like no change wahahahahaha funny guy then ok he left then we wait 4 bus then go home . hmm have fun but still alitte lost and sad... hmmmm
